It is never my plan to become a SAHM (stay at home mom) nor imagined it when I was pregnant. I always wanted to go back to a corporate world after giving birth. Everything has changed though the moment I held my son. I wanted to be there for him every second of the day. I never wanted to lose sight of him. I wanted to be there for him every time he needs me. That’s also the day I decided to stay at home.
It’s never easy. Sometimes I feel so small and jealous whenever I saw friends’ posts on facebook about their weekend travels, their barkada night outs, their office lives, and their holiday plans. I don’t even feel like going out meeting people because they will only keep on asking the same thing all over again. When do you plan to stop breastfeeding your child? When do you plan to work? What do you do at home? And a lot more. The worst thing is, people think that being a SAHM means living a comfortable, cozy and easy life! Uhh! I wish they know.Being a SAHM is not good and easy for me because cleaning the house means giving my child an idea to mess around. There will be times too that while trying to arrange everything especially toys, my son is following me also trying to put them out of place.
Being a SAHM is not good and easy for me because most of the time I cook while carrying my little one. There are times too that I’m nursing him while I’m eating.
Being a SAHM is not good and easy for me because peeing and pooping are almost impossible without an audience.
Being a SAHM is not good and easy for me because even when I’m sick, I can’t be sick.
Being a SAHM is not good and easy for me because I almost can’t enjoy shower time because someone is waiting. Most of the time I bath with my son. Brushing my hair becomes the last option as well.
Being a SAHM is not good and easy for me because even when I don’t usually know what to do when my son is sick, I become a good nurse. Waking up in the middle of the night to comfort him becomes a habit too even when you still have bunches of household chores to do the next morning.
Being a SAHM is not good and easy for me because sleeping early and sleeping enough becomes an unreachable dream especially when LO is still wide awake even if it’s close to midnight already.
Being a SAHM is not good and easy for me because I work 24/7 with no day off, no break time, no sick or vacation leave, and no salary!
Most of all, being a SAHM is not good and easy for me because of all these things I do I’m still questioned what kind of a mother I am.
Why being a SAHM is not good? Because it’s awesome. Yes, it’s A W E S O M E! And I’d like to brag that SAHM for me means SUPER AWESOME HOMEMAKER MOM! I am proud and happy for choosing this path. It’s all worth it. Nothing really beats being a mother. That travel thing others are enjoying will soon come to me, the best thing when it comes is I’d be traveling` with my son, I’d be enjoying things with my son. And I can’t wait for that to happen. Crossing fingers.
One more thing, don’t be a stay-at-home-mom if you can’t be awesome! xo.